~' six2oPR|VATEroOM '~

NOTICE

2007-07-16T18:44:00.000+08:00

shifted to http://www.xanga.com/madelinemadgum

might be drop by here once in a while~ haha

chaoz~

bored!

2007-06-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

I'M FEELING　ＢＯＲＥＤ！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

happy mother's day 2007

2007-05-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

retreats!

2007-05-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

today finished my pharm dispensing practical exam....
*SIGH* gonna die!!!

luckily, dad called up for lunch!wee!!!
there we go~
haha

love his music!!!wanna buy it!

bought by dad....

play it!!!!

2007-05-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

rabbits~!!

2007-05-05T13:17:00.000+08:00

sau sing gong!!

bad camera~ better view in Mel's blog~ :)

Hew's edit~

Gua Tempurung 2007

2007-05-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

The trip started with..............

LILIAN Bah Kut Teh located at Berkeley,Klang~

both is also da same tea actually.. =.="

The,we headed to --------------GUA TEMPURUNG!!!!

paiseh~ cacat hp thus unable to snap the whole mountain~

The whole expedition's journey was awesome !!!!!!Definitely worthwhile paying for RM21!But sadly, we cant bring our gadgets in...cz we r going to damaged it...cz whole body will be wet as we need to go through 2 way ---dry as well as wet region of the cave....dry part not so exciting but it is stil awesome!Cz i got to see the wonder of God's creation~This was my 1st real-life experience in a CAVE within a MOUNTAIN. :P
The wet part was exciting as well as challenging....of course also SCARY~We need to walk in the water....crawl under the super super huge stone with water and also full of staglatit above our head.....
The challenging part was that we nid to climb up to some top...then we nid to slide down a 'HILL' which might cause DEATH any minute if u are not cautious enough...and also, there were lotsa 'nature-made-trap' along the path..so nid to be very cautious and alert too....
the SCARY part was while we are trying to crawl across an area full of sharp staglatit on top our head and also water of a quite high level, we met a water-snake!We all had a narrow escape from that creature....cuz it just swimmed beside of me and few of us....Luckily the caveman aware of it and saved us al from that....or else i'm dont know where am i now....if no harm also masuk tanjung rambutan because of psycho-effect... ^^
Anyway, i learned a lot from this expedition....which can apply to my life...Some kind of precious lesson from God and our 'mother-nature'..and i appreciate it so much~ just that is really a regret cz i can snap pict...but next time i'll know wut to do alrd if wanna bring camera....THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IS TO HAVE A WATER PROOF TORCHLIGHT!!!!haha~ But anyway, guess wont be no more next time for this cave lor...:) cz it will be no more fun n curiosity alrd..
The toilet condition is good also....RM1 for shower after the expedition....:)
RECOMENDED for an adventurous trip!!!---GUA TEMPURUNG ;)

After the expedition, we of course headed to Kampar for claypot chicken rice !!!quite well-known 1 i heard~ but it is really nice alright!

So,while waiting of course i wont forget to do some *SNAP SNAP* work~ haha paiseh~

Made@Mel

Ruth@Made

And after a while,the claypot chicken was being presented!!

AFter that, we went for check in at a hotel in ipoh.GRAND VIEW HOTEL...
Quite ok lor the room...then the price also ok la..RM 105 for a double bed room..per night..

While waiting for the distribution of key we definetly wont forget to "SS" again lor..

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After that, get ready ourselves for dinner~!!BEFORE DINNER, WE........

Then, we headed for ipoh tauge chicken + sa hor fun!!

SATISFY!!!!

keledek after dinner~

keledek-maniac!!

Here another session...

The next day went to Foh San DimSUM!!!!6.30 am!!

ipoh pp really very healthy wor~

MEL~~~

old stall selling newspaper...

RM 1 each

SWEAT~

biscuit also got sample!!!???

crazy mel....crazy with guang liang...FAINT*

BIDOR~~

wantan mee...

duck soup~delicious!!

end of the trip~

bye bye!~

Gey,Gey~

2007-04-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

Geh GEh~~

i used to not very like her....for dunno what reason...
Now, I LOVE HER~................LECTURES!!!!
hehe....
I think i will love her personality as well maybe....:)

From here,i guess i should give another chance for the 'bi-atches' or 'jer-kies' out there once again....
maybe when i get to know you more i'll be able to accept you as a human again...

am i advertising for STARBUCKS!!??????SAKAI!!!!

GILA

2007-04-26T19:33:00.000+08:00

:P

captured today in library...haha

p/s: shir~heres ur update oo....faster THANK me la~haha

PSA's Blackie Gang....i guess the fella in red is da boss! hahaha

fooling around~ hehe :)

i'm loving it--DRESSES!! gggrrhhhhhhhh~~~

silly*

2007-04-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

FAT GUY!!!

this is wut i did!

2007-04-21T13:37:00.000+08:00

Just started on pharm chem revision....

haven finish the 1st part yet....and this is wut i did...

I'M LOVING IT!!!!

knitting!!!haha....can't stop the itchiness of my hand....:P

1 hour of revision plus 2 hours++ of knitting!!!tada~~!!! and i'll be dead by the time of Tue....wakakaka~!!
Rach la~~!!!haha makes me started it so early!!haha...i love the puple colour more and more as i go on with the knitting... :P

love ya all~~!!

2007-04-20T17:17:00.000+08:00

very scare oo...wut u wanna do to me?

aiyooo~

yieerr~~so dirty!!

haha~ lotsa experimental volunteer!!

u think he good-looking??
take a look below~

KNS*

like got some kind of disease...*FAINT*

nice...

BUT

mine is more pro~haha...

sesat~

Nice...but BLUR~ STUPIAAK~
TTH change ur handphone la wey~~

kononnya sangat rajin....haha...

updates~

2007-04-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

Love being with you guys!!!!!! **MUAACKSSS MUAACKSSS**
i LUV McFLURRY OREO~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

happy BEAR-DAY to TTH!!!

cute cute shiinchan!!

ugly sakai!!sampat uncles!

TIRE~

2007-04-08T21:29:00.000+08:00

Just wanted to post this pict....

It is not a funny or a happy thing when i know that grandma become so blur....taking medcine inappropriately.....I so hate myself whenever i realised that they have done something wrongly,i mean can say as STUPID!Just because of me,lack of care,lack of time to stay around and watching over them....I'm an idiot~
Once again,i used my entire one week holidays wisely-----SLEEP,EAT,SHOP,PROCRASTINATING!!! I'm just wasting my time right?
Where have all my motivation gone?Why don't i appreciate the chance to study?I'm so stupid!!Don't know la....all i know now is my mind is totally BLANK!!!Feels like want to stop everything!!!!wanna have a break!!a long long break!!!...
Gonna go mad with this kind of life!!!gonna drives me crazy!!!!!I can't go on~!I'm not HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Genting@2007

2007-04-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

F.A.T.E.

2007-04-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

FATE----- this came into my mind while i was washing my plate in the kitchen just now.I stared at the street,memories flashed into my mind....broughts me back into those days,where i used to always go to find one of my old friend,which lived behind my house....
FATE broughts us two to become friends....but it is depend on ourselves whether to grab it or not...depends on ourselves to make the 'fate' to either bloom or to just vanish.....
Peoples,including me myself....used to always said 'let it be,if we were meant to be,it wil be no matter what....let fate leads us...or let see how's our fate....' At this moment i said those are "SHIT!!" You idiots!!please wake up!!!!!God already started ur 'fate' in ur life!!!!!destroy or go on,is in our hands!!!! Those who gonna said what i stated above was an IDIOT and TIKUS!! I think thats just an excuse to hide your corwardness in pursuing or chasing what you want....!or perhaps it is somethings that already belong to you ,all that you need to do is to take one step forward, BUT you choose to use something 'non-existance' to loose it~CRAP!!!
Just because of me myself who is STUPIEST....if not,i should have always keep in touch with her....~right?i'm an idiot!!..
Anyway, just suddenly came into my mind.....But i find it quite true to those who are escaping and cheating themselves...or just merely a TIKUS!
Nevermind, BLOOM it or LET IT BE....Have your own choice ladies and gentleman!!!

************************END-OF-THE-CRAPPING*****************************

everything has its time

2007-04-04T12:31:00.000+08:00

ECCLESIASTES 3:1-8

" For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:

a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
a time to weep, and a time to dance;
a time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
a time to seek, and a time to lose;
a time to keep, and a time to throw away;
a time to keep tear, and a time to sew;
a time to keep silence, and a time to speak
a time to love, and a time to hate;
a time for war, and a time for peace. "

love this verses very much....let me know that everything happened now happens in a time selected by daddy-god...But, i'll never forget no matter whatever i'm facing now, He will not FAIL ME or FORSAKE me....i have Him to walk with me through everything...

BUSYSSSSSSSSS

2007-04-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Had been very busy for the past few days~
Well,not busy with studies...but with activities!!!lol..
Thursday was our 'GAME-ORIENTATION-DAY' with our dear juniors...it was fun playing and it was also 'FUN" cleaning..... :P

creepy games by beng's group!

jia-yu's group..

Kam Mun's group..

Tau Lee's group..

My Groups~~WATER-WAR!!!

Mangsa-Mangsa~

thursday night went out for clubbing with frens+flens at MAISON again...well,this was the second time for me and this time is nicer than the last time at MAISON...not so pack!Hmmp,never really enjoyed clubbing before...tot i would be more enjoy if i go for the next time..but til now,nope~! nevermind,i still enjoy going for clubbing wiht frens...haha cz i can see more different 'THINGS'!!!lol.... ;P

The Dj in Maison...

Friday,after the closing ceremony of our junior's orientation,we headed to Genting~~It was a 'budget-travelling' kind of trip....hehe...it was enjoying and relaxing...and the good part was having Hann came up to join us lol~if not we gotta stay overnight on the street and freeze-to-death next day~haha....and we got a free ride back home...haha~!!But for the next time i guess i would prefer just to have four of us only....then we could chat-till-drop...haha

On our way back home,we drop by 'Tien Hou Kong'.i went there to 'kau chim' lol...hmmp...not a really good 'chim'...then we went to the curve...it was a sudden decision...went to the bazaar to get JK's pressie.....i bought another 'cheap-nice-dress' again....but so sad that it couldn't really fit me perfectly... :(
anyway,i still feel happy cz it is very very cheap!!haha....:P

At night went to Boon Tat's bday party~it was so nice and happy cz i can met my primary school frens again.... :)

These few days,no matter wherever i was,i think of a lot of thing...and i travelled a lot back to my past memories.....it was soo nice...:) though not all was happy memories...

Today went to church as usual...today's message was about 'chasing back the chances that you've missed'
It was just like Daddy-God talking to me face to face....
Thank you for the message!!!
Yeah,i've missed a lot of chances that are opened for me.....and now,i gotta and gonna chase the chances back again...

Because of the 2nd chances that daddy-god gave me,
1. i'm still having Y-O-U in my life
2. I'm still had the chances to love and appreciate my family,especially gpa and gma
3. i'm still able to do something in my studies
4. i'm still able to change and correct myself

ETC...

Just now went for a movie 'Just Follow Law' with sis and Hann!!!nice and funny!!!haha

YOU also could have the 2nd chances!!!
CHEER UP!!!! :)

memories....

2007-03-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

JackCorpse~~~

2007-03-26T22:48:00.000+08:00

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This gurl ROX!!!!!!support her in HALO CAFE~!!!!! hehe ;)

Changed.....

2007-03-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

Lotsa old friends of mine told me that i've changed....issit a good thing or issit a bad thing?i mean physically changed....the way i act,the way i wear clothing,the way i make-up myself...etc....i'm tire of all these things sometimes...but it is just out of my control...i can't resist all these things.... SAD!!!!
I don't feel good to heard this okay...i want to be the same old me...haihs....at least i'm not so materialistic...For now,everything that i am just happened naturally....For instance,i'll just automatically grab a pair of earrings whenever i'm going out....or i'll surely put on some mascara on my eyelashes...hmmp!!!it isn't a good thing huh?
Well,went out to pray this sunday service....and what the pastor told me was...'Do not let the world blinded you...till you can't see God's love..Be what you are...' This really touches my heart and reminds me of what was i'm doing all the while.... :(

"If you failed to value the things that you have now,you could not receive what you may have in the future"

Nice quotes of the day from the speaker's speech...

I seriously don't want to change to be a 'Barbie Doll' of this world...

GOSH!

2007-03-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

GOSH!!Being TAGGED by Albino & Tau Lee pulakkk!!!

APA ITU "SIX RANDOM FACTS"????!!!!

whatever...JUST HENTAM!!kakakaka!!!!

RANDOM FACT 1

I LOVE MYSELF----eventhough that i'm short,i'm just an OK-looking-girl in this world,i'm fat somewhere,i have a BIRTHMARK on my left-side's face,i have an unequal size of eyes, i'm so 'zhi-lian'(is born nature~haha),i'm corward sometimes,i'm a KIASU!(who is not one?!),i'm stupid & blur sometimes and etc ~~~

RANDOM FACT 2

I hardly tell peoples that I REALLY DO LOVE AND CARES BOUT THEM...(because i stil thinked it is yuk ma and ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!) OK,i'm improving now..i'm trying to tell now sometimes... ;)

RANDOM FACT 3

I'm tire to become a SLAVE of FATE in my LIFE!!...

RANDOM FACT 4

I'm SUPER SELFISH, I'm MOODY, I'm SHORT-TEMPERED, I'm SUPER SELF-CENTERED,I'm MATERIALISTIC, I'm MAD!!!

But i also have a good side okay? :P i like being a VOLUNTEER in those centres,a lot!!

RANDOM FACT 5

I'm lucky to met Y-O-U in my life!
no matter what other's thinking bout us...they just don't know US :)
Thank you for being there for me no matter my life is on Uphill or Downhill,Is so LOVELY to have you to walk through everything with me

~*I Love You*~

RANDOM FACT 6

I appreciate all the relationship(DADDY-GOD,FAMILY,FRIENDS,ATWK,PEOPLES THAT WALKED INTO MY LIFE BY FATE) that i have previously,now and as well as in the future....

i know i hardly say this to all of you...but i do appreciate everyone of you even to the enemies out there....Just because of your presence my life is RICH and VALUABLE!!!

~Happy.BAZAAR.Day~

2007-03-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

Went to BAZAAR again!!!WEEEEEE~~~!!!!
I used to spend money on lotsa branded stuffs,till i found Bangsar's boutiques.....which is lotsa cheaper than those esprit,guess...etc....and of course it is nicer sometimes...BUT NOW!!!i prefer BAZAAR's stuff!!!lol!!!haha....i couldn't believe it...a dress which cost RM70 that i can get from bangsar's boutiques....but at the bazaar i can get nice dresses with just RM28(lowest i could find)...OMG*****!!!!i was like 'BUY,BUY,BUY!!'...nah,forget bout quality for just one moment cuz i'm broke recently....so i'm into QUANTITY currently...so there you go-----BAZAAR!!!~~~

For Boon Tat's coming birthday's pressie~

well, though it is not a branded stuff n quality stuff that you gals require...but,it is definitely FUNNY,COOL and TRENDY!!!!I'll love it if i were u~ :P

some performance at the walk@the curve...COOL!!!

(xiao long bao)

(hong yau chao sao)

DELICIOUS****

Long Der Chuan Ren @ the Curve

It is not as expensive as you think it is...It is definitely more worthy than to go for McD or Pizza... the service there *THUMBS UP**

BLING-BLING-EARRINGS~~~ part of it is for aunt's upcoming bday pressie...

DRESSIE~~~~which is UNBELIEVABLY-CHEAP!!!!! haha HAPPY~!!!

Sticky-stickery-stick for Madeline & Elly~~ hehe....*KNS*

My 'shou huo' of the day~~!!

going ROUNDY-ROUNDY~~~

haha post it just to let MEL 'arm dui'!!lol...

I"LL DEFINITELY GET KILLED BY HER IF SHE KNOWS I POST THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO ssSSSSHHH!!!

Well,we did not forget to do some good-deed to the helpless~~

SunSet time after Bazaar~~~pheww~~TIRE!!!

i'm happy not just can shop with so low-cost...BUT haha I NONEED TO DRIVE!!THANKS TO MY 'DRIVER SIS'..!!gagaga! ^_^!!!

She looks so tense~!!!

happy!!

2007-03-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

shaker for the solid absorption experiment..

shaker2

centrifudging...

was thinking wanna play around...who knows...

luckily she helped to remove it...

relieved!!if not dunno how $$ nid to pay....

matiaak loo...

finish~

Mr.Kaya's kopitiam...

~LoVeLYdAy~

2007-03-20T01:04:00.000+08:00

BAD-HIGHLIGHTER_DAY

myART.........

myLOVE-MYwaiting-myFAV

HKpoloBUN from DAD!!haha...happy weee~~

HKpoloBUN2 from DAD!!!happy~~~~!!

"u should know what u should do as a student"!!!!i love this sentence~THANKS to you-know-who-you-are....

x xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx x

my cousins,sis and me~

Long and Winding Journey

2007-03-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

Every minute that passed me by makes me feel just like years....I can feel the bitterness and pain in my heart...i can feel that my heart beats very heavily...like it can give up and stop beating at any time.....missing someone in my life is already very painful.....and now,it seems like my whole family also facing health problem....i don't know whether i still can hang on for how long....i'm afraid that i might collapse....Remember got one advertisement said "ka yao yat lou,yu yao yat bou"...i have 2,so that means i'm a super lucky person in this world....And yet,i did not really appreciate them....Now,i'm really in great trouble....I can't stop to blame myself...i'm so regret and painful inside....i feel so suffocate...and all i can do is just PRAY for them...watch,wait,accompany them...and keep on believe that a better tomorrow is arriving.... I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo need to CRY!!!!!!!!!!!Dear God, please allow us to lean on ur shoulder....let us find peace and love in you no matter how great are the storm in our life....PLEASE!!!!!

sien!!!

2007-03-17T17:56:00.000+08:00

SIEN~~!!!!patahkan my semangat to study this morning because of the following person....

bang my 4 hours...just bcause of him!!sien!!!

this is wut we did in his class..

sakai's long feet...

ours~~~

hiding in those colourful umbrellas...

the happiest 3!!

hand of loving....i'll never ever forget bout it..

badBADweek~

2007-03-17T01:53:00.000+08:00

There are too many things inside of my mind that urge me to blog soo much....Just to let myself pour everything out from my heart & mind.However it is a bit uncomfortable for me to talk to people face to face as i have no idea from where should i begin with.
I used to be a planner.I planned things before the year starts and most of the time,everything goes smoothly.But,recently,things does not go the way that i wished.
Before the beginning of this week,i've already had the thought of how this week is going to be.But,in just a short one week time,things around me went upside down.I'm now lost in the middle of no where.No direction that seems right for me to walk in.No doors are seems to be welcoming.Me and my family just can cling to each other,hold on to each other,and also supporting each other.We felt the feeling of darkness and helpless,going through the deepest,darkest and at the same time,it seems to be soo hopeless period in our entire life.Last week,everything are just seems to be fine,or maybe i should say that it is fine for just ME.And all the way,i've missed out somebody ori can say is everybody in my family,or just people around me...I've abandoned their feeling,their thoughts... I,being so self-centered,just keep on,trying soooo hard and going into any possible way that can let me escape.Escape from every single problemsin my life.I cried for countless nights,tears just rolled down on my cheeks unexpectedly.Yes,by crying,this is helping me to release and relieve.But,after everything,the problems are stil there.Now,i think back al these things,i felt that i'm so silly and stupid to escape from everything.When i'm scare,i escaped,i dare not go home,etc..The problems not only does not disappear but troubles seems to had become our family's regular visitor.In just less than one week time,lotsa thing happened in my family again.My sister,my grandma especially....Everything that happened makes me feel sooo horrible suddenly.But now,i'm not gonna step back like what u used to do before.I'm going to keep moving on,i'm going to defend!!!!!!!!I'm going to guard my family with my prayers!!Let God lead us in this war.Let Him wins the battle for us...I'll stay behind the line and gurad them with my prayer.Although i do not know what is His purpose to allowed all this 'bad visitors' comes to our life so suddenly.But,i still believe that He are always by our side,listening to each of our prayer and cries as well as every single heartbeat inside.I wanted and i've already decided to trust in Him from the beginning and it does not change until now nor will it be in the future....I also believe that when one had fell into the deepest and darkess valley in his life,this is the time that our God shows his Glory to us.Having a great faith in Him although the outcome seems to be unseen and soo far ain't an easy thing.But i still never change....i have faith in God.If it is not Your will,then please lead them back....:)

~happy BREAD day~

2007-03-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

PART 1: comparison between a proOIL and a proSAKAI

proSAKAI

proOIL

PART 2:Happy Bread Story Day~

~CUP|D'sLOVE~

myBREADstory.............

happyWEEEE~~~

our bread story~~~~

PART 3:bigBUTTinSMALLcar..... @.@|||

PART 4:mealAFTERmeal...

PART 5:|rrelevant of today's topic...

so nice to be a baby.....:)

PART 6:WELCOME BACK!!!!

bbq2007

2007-03-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

After church,went for bbq at my uncle's house....that was my craziest bbq ever....just because of 2 sorpo joining us...lol!!crazy cam-whoring sesion~~hmm....nice....!!!!thanks to you gurls!!!!

our main helper!

ish!!!din c me so san fu fanning the charcoal gah!!!sommo got time to take pict!!!ish!

the lady of the house....

faster thank me for making you pp's life easier...haha

fei po,stop taking OIL ad~~!!!!:P

our sifu of the house!!!!

yier~~~~~~nvrmindla...forgiv u looo SAKAI!!haha

i willl nvr let go any chance to eat U!!my fav lamb~~!!yummy!!!

my aunt and uncle~~~

one of my V.V.I.P...

for my sis's best friend------nv ren!!

surprise!!!!+paiseh!!!haha

aiyoooo nv ren,u so hang fook to have my sis as ur fren!!!

3 musketeer!!!

of course cannot without us in the picture mah...

okiee....here comes our crazy cam-whoring session...

1,2,3...where is our 4????

After fetching everyone back home,we went to mamak again....

my fav teh tarik at 99's mamak...

an enjoy and economy way for tea!!!hehe

workout day~~

2007-03-11T11:50:00.000+08:00

early morning woke up went to picked up Tian,Dan,Mel n Alec to jogging....wow~ already been a while since my last workout.....i gues i should hv become more char ad loo....and definitely YES it is!!....
well,we headed to Cheong Foh for our typical roti bakar breakfast...and here it goes...

And since the moment we sat down....our eyes were fixed on a pretty gurl....til the end...

And she notice our eyes toooo.....

And here goes Daniel-------our 'kam yu lou'

so evil....

Finally Daniel has got wut he wanted....:p

Okay,here goes another group who is trying to persuade the gurl to take pict together...

Finally....

At night,went to Jenny's house(my cousin sis) for her son's fullmoon party....i love her house's decor soooo much....credits goes to his husband,Henry,who is an interior designer...Their house is like a hotel and staying at their house is like getting a free gateaway to Bali....Felt so happy to meet back once again all my cousin sis and bro....:)

sis,aunt and uncle

Fun photo session with all da sis~~~hehe!!;)

gila...

2007-03-09T17:31:00.000+08:00

daytona

dynamic dancing~~~

turning point~

2007-03-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

all so excited to try on our gonna-be-pharmacy-shirt's size,right in the LIBRARY

Miss Rach

Miss Joanne

Me!!:P

Mr. Andrew

putting on....

taking off.....

and OOoOooooOooOooOOOOoooOOOPPPpppPPPPSSssssSSSS!!!!

Christian Fellowship's game session...

went to CF in SIT....makes me realised that i really nid to make a commitment with daddy God.....make an appoinment with him to listen to his Words....
Really impressed by the way which Mr.Dinesh used to spoke to us....it just like every words also touches my heart...and is like Daddy God telling me that,hey!!i must not forget HIS presence....and should spare some time and spaces for him in my life!Thanks to Daniel for remind me bout the CF's meeting too...or else i would forget liao....i like the 1st speech session!!!hope to involve myself actively in the future...and I wanna make a commitment to Daddy God.....Please forgive me bout the past....change me and draw me close to you please...Thanks for ur Words that awakened me!!!I shall not keep on to be depressed anymore.....Because of you... :)

pretty woman~~~

SHE'S MINE!!!! :P

learned bout Aurora during Form 3 science class.....fall inlove with it till now~~

beautiful~~

gonna grab a chance to fly to Alaska to spectaculate those beautiful Aurora!!hmmmp,can't wait any longer!!!!!!!

another moliu day~~

2007-03-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

ingredients of the day~

bentonite+NaCl = kacang hijau tong sui

spindle No.7 for cornflour

cornflour which looks like milk!

pretty veron + me

dead bear

alive!

wuliao!

2007-03-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

Today another mouliu day......wasted my whole day....copying pract....hanged around in JJ & did some stupid stuff which Rach usually did...lol...Mel,u know it lor!haha....
Recently,my everyday also very mouliu....just wanna stuck everything into my hours to make a day....if not very hard to pass through everyday...

ooo...very busy..!!!!!BUSY COPYING PRACTS!!!

hmm~delicious CHEE CHEUNG FUN!!!

Today another 'zi lian' pp takeover my place to b 'zi lian'....
Let me present to you-----------DANIEL~~

zi lian ----1

zi lian----2

zi lian-----3

zi lian-----4

zi lian------5

zi lian------6

zi lian------7

zi lian------8

zi lian------9

zi lian-----10

beh tahan mann~~~more than 10 actually~~lol!!!

KISS SITE------from Sherwood~LOL!!!

hmmp....as usual,i still can't get you out of my mind..... :'(

Air SUpply

2007-03-04T22:03:00.000+08:00

Air Supply
I Can Wait Forever

When you say, I miss the things you do,
I just wanna get back close again to you.
But for now, your voice is near enough,
How I miss you, when I miss you, love.
And though,
All the days that pass me by so slow
All the emptiness inside me flows, all around,
And there's no way out
I'm just thinkin' so much of you,
There was never any doubt...

CHORUS
I can wait forever, if you say you'll be there, too
I can wait forever, if you will, I know it's worth it all
To spend my life alone with you.

When it looked, as though my life was wrong,
You took my love and gave it somewhere to belong
I'll be here, when hope is out of sight,
I just wish that I was next to you tonight, and oh
I'll be reachin' for you even though,
You'll be somewhere else, my love will go
like a bird, on it's way back home
I could never let you go, and I just want you to know...

CHORUS

Where are you know?
Alone, with the thoughts we share
Keep them strong somehow,
And you know, I'll always be there...

I can wait forever, if you say you'll be there, too
I can wait, forever if you will, I know it's worth it all
To spend my life alone...
I can wait forever, if you say you'll be there, too,
I can wait, forever if you will, I can wait forever or more...
I can wait forever...

corkboard

2007-03-04T19:23:00.000+08:00

- Add Stuff - Get Your Own

chapGOHmei~

2007-03-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

'lou sang'

here we go....

'lou lou lou!!!'

kena marah~!!

RELIEVE!!

2007-03-03T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today very boring....so we decided to went for skating...haha...is fun!!!haha...releases all my 'black mood' inside~~
After that went to the CURVE for PADDINGTON"S PANCAKE & BAZAAR!!OMG~~i'm now soo sooo sooooo PK mannn~~!!!!tak sempat shop finish for the bazaar cz was rushing to go home... ;)
any way those are the pictures------------------

paddington's pancake house

Mel's order of american stack pancake...yummy!!

Shir's order ....a desert which makes everyone of us beh tahan.....cannot eat for more than 1 bite....haha...end up she eat till siao...

Mine order of hawaii double beef pancake burger.....OMG!!!too big portion liao~~~

the two survivor~~

Mel gave up!!

the final survivor!!! :P a.k.a my sis!!

3 loser~~

the bazaar~~

so nice.....and quite cheap tooo~~ :( pk!!!!!!

my 'shou huo'~~~lol!!!

soSOday

2007-03-03T01:07:00.000+08:00

The day starts with classes.....during physio class,we watched a video which to show us the experiment on toads...it is soooooo CRUEL!!

PITY TOAD!!!

dropping some ACIDS on the TOAD's SKIN

After class,we headed to STATION 1 for a suprise birthday celebration for Joanne...

("wei,mana itu watak utama??!!belum datang lagi kah??")

(gitu lama~~~~~gonna fall asleep liao~)

Chicken spaghetti.....

TADAA~~~~~the SAU SENG LUI!!!

After that,me,Shir & Mel headed to 1-U for SHOPPING!!!!!!!lol~~~

*I_WANNA_BEE_WITH_YOU*

my 'SOU HUO'!!!lol.....with my old-blue-piggie~

the lesson of 'THOU SHALL SPEND WISELY".....end up to have a COMBO CINNAMON MEAL for dinner for just RM8.90!!!!!!!!! :'(

After shopping,it is already too late to go for the bbq at Kam Mun's house....so paiseh that we FFK you guys~ So next, we went for tong shui for some reason to soothe a heart-broken-feeling of a pig at Gei Tak Sek.Then we went for 'SAM SHEUNG SI SENG' at JJ before we go back~~While watching the movie which is suppose to be a COMEDY...but i couldn't really laugh out loud like everyone.....i did tried but i really cant....it is just FAKE!...tears keep on rolling down because of some reasons....memories-of-past~ and makes me realise that i really not MYSELF!!!!shit!HOW COULD THIS EVER HAPPENNED ON ME!!!!!????....Time will makes thing gets better in the future,very soon i know..... :)
very tire today....actually i'm not really happy today,and i just wanted to be quiet inside and relax my mind a bit..PMS's fault perhaps :) !!!!but haha!!THANKS for the companion from those you-know-who-you-are......THANKS!!!

FULL.......OVERFLOW.....

2007-03-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

whoops~~!!!!!!fulll already..................gonna explode already~

i-love.

2007-03-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

i-am.......

~ .::BEADS-maniac::. ~

i-love.....

~ MUSICboxs.::.fairyTALES ~

i-love.....

~ crystals.::.CANDLES.::.pooh.PIGGIES.::.photos-of-EVERY-moments ~

i love everything that i have!!!!!!yeah!!!! ;) ...............
and also MANY things that i don't have yet~ ;P

~polkadotsnight~

2007-03-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

bluek!!!!!!

fall in love again with polka-dots~ faint**

HOT HONEY MILK
never ever try to order this at station 1 !!!!!it suckkss!!!

salicylic acid ear drops & the powder~~

pharm lab is so fun cz it is sooo relaxing~~haha....just only Mr.Tay lab session only will happen.... :P

feels so lazy to go to class now.....new year hols mood still on!!!!haha....never had a good night sleep until i fed myself with some cough mixture....this really helps me sleep till sunrise!!lol!!!nice!!!
this is the result of missing someone.....
i'm hoping so much that i can be tougher~ and i actually thought that i'm really strong.....but i'm not.For the 1st time in my life that i can't be any stronger....loneliness is killing me deep inside...is INSIDE~~~!!sigh!!
k,i guess the effect of Cetifed + Melatonin is working in my body systems now....i'm feeling sleepy already~night & sweet dreams everyone!! :)

sang leng's birthday!!

2007-02-26T21:45:00.000+08:00

Sang Leng birthday!!gave her a small suprise yesterday night!lol...this morning fishing in the class again.sigh!
not ready yet for classes!!!!holiday mood stil on ~~~~so damn lazy now!!

some tid-bits from those who travelled to overseas during cny break!
;)

idiot!

2007-02-26T03:28:00.000+08:00

damn!!!missing someone makes my heart taste sooooo SOUR !!!!
ok,am i something wrong or wut....is already 335am in the morning and tomorrow class started at 10am,and what am i doing here!!!!???stupid!!!the whole cny holidays makes my biological clock turns upside down~~hanging out till early morning then sleep till late noon...and so on~~
been coughing like mad for the whole CNY which means no outing for me!!untill i beh tahan already then i decided to hang out with my frens....SIEN!!!!!

miss ya!!!

2007-01-29T17:08:00.000+08:00

miss you!!! :'-(

Sanctuary

2007-01-29T17:01:00.000+08:00

10 celcius for vodka shot...

Sanctuary at the Curve

eye on malaysia...

2007-01-23T23:20:00.000+08:00

this is a day to remember.....n to reflect...

s|ck

2007-01-07T17:06:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling sick....+headache....+gonna fever.... = my heart now....
Sometimes...things will just happen...and you cant stop it...
2 more weeks later...perhaps my life wil change...yes,definitely for sure it will change....to better or to worst only...
today aunty asked me a question which i also don't know how to answer her...is not a hard question...but i really dont know how to answer...if i answer yes it dont happen then how?if i answer no,that would not be my answer from my heart...i want it to be a yes...
i felt that she like afraid that we both will separate....i cant felt that...:)
very sad,very tire,very sick....
but you don't know it....just like a stranger...or just a normal friend....cuz you wont talk to me more than that...just like worst than a normal friend.....why?!
cannot talk....write also can wut....don't know....and nvr wana ask....cz i also dont know how to ask already....
i just know to do my part....sometimes,i did lotsa things to let you know that i appreciate you....vice versa,i also just a ordinary girl who wants to feel like being appreciate and wanted by their loves one....

.::S.P.E.E.C.H.L.E.S.S.::.

loSt!!!

2007-01-07T16:52:00.000+08:00

LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!
MY HANDPHONE HAS FINALLY LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GGGRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
losing the handphone is not as sad as losing my simcard and all the valuable properties in it such as my contact numbers....my messages....pictures....etc...!!!!!!!
SHIT!!!!!!!

wee~~~cohort 8@@

2007-01-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

fate

2007-01-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

we love each other....but we always question our love for each other....
we care for each other...but we always don't know how to express ourselves....
we fight frequently....but our hearts and mind still thinking of each other....
i hate him....but i still cant erase his every single thing in my mind....
i love him....but i dont know how to tell him that i do love him....
i ignore him...but i cant stop myself from talking lotsa of thing to him inside my heart....
i tried to escaped.....somehow,some thing makes me return to him....
It is weird....but guess this is love...
it is unexplainable....and things just get into the track without you expecting it to be happened....
:)
Time flies...i cant race with it....no matter how....you stil hav to leave...
no matter how...
guess we both might have the same feelings inside....and yet,we did not tell each others and also we act like nothing is going to happen....
Time lets us meet each other.....time let us walk till today....and now,let Time lead us to the future....

x x x x x x x x

forget bout those....now,i'm sososososososooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo HAPPY~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~!!!!
hehe.....RESULTS IS OUT!!!!!!!!!!!though i din get a very good results....but I AM SUPER DUPER HAPPY MANNNNN!!!!!cuz at least i did not fail any of it...Finally i can start to clean up my table and books!!!

x x x x x x x x x

MOKU is BACK!!!!!

so like a "HUNGRY-GHOST"

moku!

x x x x x x x x x x x
hot chocolate & cappucino

some left-out chocolate cinnamon :P

happy 2007~!!!!!

2007-01-01T22:17:00.000+08:00

phew~~~another year passed by....
new year,new change,and new BLOGSKIN!!!!yeah!!!
and perhaps a new life soon....
well,had been started working right after exam in a pharmacy at eng ann....learn quite a lot of things.... :)
and thanks to mr.T who taught me a lot that day...hehe
got some news that results might be out this coming friday....and also got some news saying that this time our chem did really badly....although i'm not the worst....but i guess most probably i failed it....
but T said i should worry more on Pharm....cz no 1 year that everyone will pass....it is more likely to fail pharm than chem....sigh...dunola...
aiya~forget bout it first...
hey ya!!i love my midis now eh....hehe...is christian songs...nice!!hehe
moku had came back~but @>--- gonna leave...
don't know whats my feeling was but tears is rolling down again ...inside....
aiya...dunnola...i'll find way to give him surprise...:) not now of course...
by the way everyone,i very sui ler....my new year countdown happened on my suffering time....i gt diarrhoea man....spend most of my time in the toilet....guess i was food poisoned~!!
a bit disappointed cz cant have fun with my A levels friends...having bbq half way ni then i kena ad....so sui la....so sorry peeps!!!
sigh...i really cannot tahan ad oni i chaoz...
hope to meet u guys very soon....
God,i don't know what you want from me...what you want from gpa....what you want from us....but i know you are awesome...i know you are doing something for us....you wanna change us...please let ur sun shine on us.....please....shine on him...let him regain whatever he has last time...and restore his strength....let him wake up again....rejoice in ur name....

christmas

2006-12-25T22:18:00.000+08:00

i miss my masterpiece

2006-12-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

PALIA!!!!

Suffocating~

2006-12-02T22:44:00.000+08:00

take me instead for an exchange.....
for how many times that i cried out to YOU that let me be the one who lie down there or just take me away......
Let him be well once again......
Heart had been crushed into a million pieces by just looking at him.....
The pain that i felt inside still burning like a fire......my heart gonna burst....
I am worthless....and i'm nothing.....just take me as an exchange for grandpa.....
I cant do anything without them in my life...i'm nothing!!!!!Absolutely NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not me anymore.......
Laughter is not like a laughter.....
happy is not from the heart inside.....
Everything is not lasting......
Suddenly thought of a sentences from The Cinderella Story...being modified by me already----"waiting for HOPE is like waiting for the sky to rain in the dessert~"
feel like hopeless but still i got no choice but to believe and beg for a miracle to happened on him....

picts!

2006-12-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

focus on her FACE~~~ :P lol

hmmp~sakai memang sakai....face also slimmer ~ jungle not enough food to hunt izzit?

the monkey!

by some monkey!

siao no.3

siao no.2

siao already~

2 siapos + 1 idiot~ ;P

bluek~~tak boleh tahan~~~lol!!!!2 siapos~~

Mr.Santa~~

The performers~

sad

2006-12-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

Today was planning to do revision in library...but my head was very heavy today...feel like gonna fall sick ad...a while later saw a notice paste on the board in SIT middle's hall annoucing to everyone that there will be a farewell lunch for Dr.Wong.My first intuition was---------Pharmacy department's punya Wong....
Sigh....very sad....hate the feeling of saying goodbye....feel very sad and pain inside...cannot fight the feeling..tears burst out....cant stop it....when i saw him still smilling i really feel sad for him.....
After went home just now sister Lilian let grandpa try to breathe through his nose so she closed his trachea hole....i saw him trying very hard to breathe.....i cant fight the sadness and pain inside of my heart again.....tears burst out again....i lie my head on his chest.hugged him....place his hand around my neck....trying to let him hugged and feel me....i realy very sad....very very sad.....very very sad...don't know how to shout out all my feeling and thoughts inside.....what had happened???why?????
Grandpa....wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dont treat him like this ~~~~~~~~please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
20062006.....i tot it will be a wonderful year for me....wuts gonna happen before end of the year?????

my name

2006-11-26T21:43:00.000+08:00

prastinator is my name.....
procrastinating is simply irresistible....
though.....i'm not enjoying it....
something is in my heart.....a weight...tat goes deep inside....and makes me feel pain inside....
my heart is SICK now~~....
it needs intensive care unit to help it....
the thing that stabbed into it makes me hurt and hard to breath.......
heart is beating fast whole day.......
waiting for a hope is a question for me...eventhough i chose to believe still...but how long can i survive to keep on waiting for it?i'm afraid that i will collapsed before it could happen....
dear god,please ...please take me as an exchange for him.....let me go through it even this is hard ....but it is even more hard n suffering to look at him without knowing what i can do for him except just pray.....tell me please tell me....what do you want??!!!!!!!!!!!!what had he done to YOU??!!!!!!!please take his bitter cup away....let him be healed...if not...take me instead....i might not be as strong as him to go through this...but i really cant stand to look at him in this condition....
i'm really suffocating now....
please,grant us a christmas miracle~~
i really pray that you wake him up !!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have no more purpose in life without both of them.....i don't how to go on with it....
i have no direction.....i wont have courage to live on......
please.....please....please....
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

updates

2006-11-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

Mission Complete!!!!! :)

Eating!!!

my apple!!!

my pendrive *****guardian pig****

Christmas!!!!!!!

WHY

2006-11-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

why there is so many WHY in my life?
why did all these things happened to me?
i also dunno.....
hmmp...too bad lar.....
since before my existence until now...people around mer,especially my family,also very special....everything that i had went through in my life also not easy and very special....
but i thank got that i did not spent my time to blame and grunt everyday bout my life and peoples around me....i just know to ask WHY.the biggest WHY in my life was my dad's affair...but now,the biggest WHY ever happen in my life is my grnadpa.WHY??????
i really don't know....and my grandma also....getting skinnier....not a good thing for me....'cause no longer cute and chubby....but,all i saw in her eye is just sadness,sadness, and sadness.....again,WHY???
people out there~~dont be like me always ask WHY...but learn to look in another aspect or angle and learn from it...no matter what had happened,always believe and look on the bright side....
appreciate and grab the chances you have in you to do whatever you want efore the chances slip away,or before it is too late to let the person or whatever know what's in your mind and heart!!!!
~loVe the person that your heart truly love.....
~eAt foods that you suddenly wanted to eat....
~sLEeP whenever your body feel tire or just simply because your want to sleep....
~tAlK whenever you had a chance to do so...
~SmIlE to anyone that you see even though they might not return your smile...

GUYS AND GURLS~~~~GO AHEAD AND DO WHATEVER YOU FEEL RIGHT BOUT IT!!!! ;)

!!!!DON'T EVER WASTE YOUR PRECIOUS TIME TO HATE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE THAT IS UNNECESSARY AND WORTHLESS FOR YOU TO DO SO!!!!!

:P

2006-11-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

uglyRANDOMpictures

2006-11-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

today

2006-11-22T09:42:00.000+08:00

21st November 2006:
Today is such a beautiful day to me....
Today is Grandpa's birthday....
Today me and sakai had sign up our life-long engagement.................................................................to the NATIONAL ORGAN DONOR ASSOCIATION :P
Today is the first time ever to celebrate birthday with grandpa in such condition....
Today is a day for remembrance....
Today i put myself unto HEAVENLY FATHER's hand to guard my life...so that when the time comes...my body parts are in a good condition to be pass on to someone who need it...
Today i stil thank HIM for looking after my grandpa...and for the blesssing to him....even though grandpa never make it to wake up for his celebration....
Everything in life has two side....so i can either choose the good side or the bad side...
But life will be wasted if i always look on the bad side...
And so do you.. :)
I still awaiting for the SUN to rise up again in our lives....and by that time....we will testify and glorify you for your great love to us...
Let us keep on lean on you.....my dearest FATHER...

blur**

2006-11-20T17:29:00.000+08:00

The feeling of love has gone....
The desire to kiss had lost...
Whether it is still love or it is just used to have you by my side is already known n clear....
Since when it has all gone?
But why i still hunger for your hug n wanted you to be with me throughout the toughest night?
I dislike your immaturity...
I dislike you dont care 'bout ur appearance..
I dislike you dont really remember every thing that i said....
I dislike you dont understand me.....(Is it i'm not open enough to allow you to understand me?)
I dislike when there is nothing to talk between us...
I dislike when i need to keep on tell you the direction...
I dislike when you are not gentleman enough...
I dislike you to be dissupportive when i really need you to really stand by me...
I dislike when you always ask for something that i already told you that i dont want to....
I dislike when you let the love of ours gone....
I dislike when you cant let me love you more n more ....
What should be my next step????
Am i expecting too much??
Or it is just the end of our story?
will i still missing you when we had separate?
will the feeling of love rush back to me again after we separate?
how am i gonna take those risk?
It is so unfair to you.....

hope~

2006-11-20T17:23:00.000+08:00

20th November '06:
Is 2 am and yet i stil awaking....
My grandpa is at home for 2 days already....and at the same time i also wasted my two days without putting an effort to start my revision....
Since grandpa case,only that i understand now the meaning of 'accept everyone as an individual'....If i am a perfect person,doing everything perfectly in my own eye this doesnt mean that everyone in the world should be doing things like what you are doing or do things up to your sastifactory level...it might not happen as everyone has their own level...they cannot be as smart as you are nor as dumb as you are....anyway,they stil do up to their best in everything...even there are still some imperfection..But i am actually still learning to accept this....B'cause normally people will always wanted everyone to follow their way...
I thank God for his care for grandpa....
The SUN will surely shines into his life and he rest of my family life.... :)

A surprise in life

2006-11-20T17:11:00.000+08:00

Very long time didn't update my blog already...because something had happened to my grandpa.Year 2006 by right should be a wonderful year for me....'cuz at first everything good had gifted to me from God.For instance,i got a good result in A-lvl(not bad la for me),then i stepped into a world which is not my choice-------PHARMACY...but it will be my stepping stone for my goal in the future....I knew i did not put my effort in suceeding it...but i really made up my mind during my time in Germany that i really will appreciate this opportunity for mi to learn for things...plus,this semester the fees is by me n my grandpa because of my dad's business is in down period....but who knows not everyting i planned in life will happen as it is...just like my grandpa case...Then another thing was i finally reunion with my long-lost mum n brother....is just like a surprise gift for me....God had finally answer my prayers after all these years....
But then,who knows that the year 2006 turns into a nightmare in my life so sudden.....On 2nd Oct 2006,i said goodbye to my grandpa after he sent me to college...when i tried to called back wanna ask grandma to cook more for dinner cz albino,sakai n bubble wanna come over to do the decoration thingy for senior's farewell...who knows on the other side of the phone,grandma was crying n telling me that she cant cook cz gpa was being sent to hospital cz he fell down from the stair while trying to fix the ceiling in my house's carpark area....i was so shocked....i just went blanked n luckily rach got drove to cll ...so i asked her to sent me home...all i could do was just pray to God while on my way home....all these happened too fast....tooo fast....that i couldn't accept it....then Alvan n i rush to the hospital.. tears was rolling out uncontrollable....i ran all the way to the emergency area asking for my grandpa location....when i saw my grandpa...he coud nt open his eye...but he just can move oni....i really burst....then the doctor sent him to radiology department to do CT-scan for him...i saw him vomit blood from his mouth....all these images still fresh in my mind til today...i still remember every single thing that i saw ....the surgeon told us that cant wait anymore,he nid to do the operation rightaway to remove his blood clot.the success percentage is just 50%-50%..'he suffered from severe head injury on admission,gcs is 7/15....left frontal contusion....left frontal sdh....hematoma.....midline shift....distance of the blood clot 2.4 cm,etc'....al these words that i read from the report still in my mind....after more than 2hours in OT,the operation finally had finish...i thank god!...then he is sent to neuro icu room....stay there for 2 weeks....nvr giving up to pray for him....nvr give up to trust in god....n God is so good to grandpa n me..he sent peoples from other church that we dunno to pray for grandpa n my family...n to guide mi to pray also....i really gratefull for all these....thank god that although my family stil not believer of god....but he stil love them so much....grandpa really shows some improvement bit by bit day by day although doctors stil tolds us that he is recovering very very slow...some also told mi that he might become vegetative bcz he has a severe brain injury n also take into account of his age factor....but i refuse to trust in them...because i knoe that nothing is impossible in God...HE knows grandpa more than anyone...i want to believe in HIM for his healing hands to touch my grandpa....
All the days that i spent in hospital,i had learn lotsa of things.....felt like i grown older by 10 years suddenly...i saw things that many of u guys might not seen....i experience things that you guys might not have the chance to experience...etc...is true...and the most important thing of all is i drew myself closer to God....n i also nvr know that i can trust someone like tat....i learned n understand the meaning of 'appreciate' n 'grateful'....i think one day 24hours is not enough to give praise to the lord....i thank god that i stil can breath by my own....i thank god that i am safe in his arm...i thank god that i can cough out phlegm by myself...i thank god that i can think,intepret n decide things by myself....i also thank god that i can open up my eye to see things in the world...i thank god for every single thing in my body that works healthily...a lot more~~~i say like this is because i saw those that unable to do all these 'simple' things that u guys tink...is a gift to us that we should appreciate...although it is simple...n of course u wil think that av single living organism can breath...but u will aprreciate it n be grateful that u actually can breath by ur own after u experience period that u cant do this before....just wanna say that appreciate everything that u had now,frens,family,enemies etc....even though u hate ur enemies...but actually they also let u see n learn something from their bad attitude....as a lesson for urself....life can actually be very fragile when u dun even had the chance to notice it...
after class re-start,i try to adjust my emotion etc...i try to be happy again....cz i think that i should not be so sadn worry...because GOD is with grandpa...i just can do wutever i can...n pray for him...every single corner in my house full with grandpa's shadow....everyting thing that i did in my daily life will makes me think bout grandpa...his teaching etc...he really is a superman in our life....he knew everythings bout electrical thingy,carpenter thingy....furniture...cooking....fabric....music...etc...he has got all the talent that not everyone can have...although he dun hv much chances to study during his time...but he nvr give up to upgrade himself....he keep n asking question etc...even though sometimes i feel very fan when he always ask....but he still ask...he really is a special person...he would be a genius if he were to be born to this world now..i alwasy say that if i am a scientist i wil clone him n my grandma....they are so awesome!!!
anyway,grandpa is going to be discharge in the morning...he wil be sent home ....n i still trust in GOD that he will let my grandpa wake up n by that time my grandpa will praise his work n glorify HIM....cz i know that GOD will nvr ever let his work to be done halfway....n i should not cease to trust in him..... :)

2006-09-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

boring!! haha
six2o*P|R

2006-09-30T21:09:00.001+08:00

poori
six2o*P|R

2006-09-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

fried icecream!
six2o*P|R

2006-09-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

cuttie pie
six2o*P|R

2006-09-30T21:07:00.001+08:00

birthday star!!!
six2o*P|R

2006-09-30T21:07:00.000+08:00

haha...IS MINE!!!;P
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2006-09-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

A+ POWER**
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2006-09-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

my FIRST TIME!
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2006-09-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

mi with da EGG!! wink*
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2006-09-18T17:41:00.001+08:00

my boiled egg!! hehe
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2006-09-18T17:41:00.000+08:00

Johnny's steamboat@JJ
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2006-09-18T17:40:00.001+08:00

da ball is IN!!! ;)
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2006-09-18T17:40:00.000+08:00

this is wut bubble n mi did last sunday!! ;P
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darkness fall upon me

2006-09-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

The day passed me by so fast again...n the fear of the darkness came to me again....i scare darkness ....my mind n heart is already very saturated...all da spaces have been filled with tears n pain...i dunno why there is so much inside...i dunno why....trying to do something to forget bout it...but it still remain there...it is very hard to hold the tears than gonna fall...even in the day time...
i felt the pain even when i breathe....
dunno la...dunnola.....hmm!!!! MZ !!

2006-09-16T17:35:00.000+08:00

'jia you zhan' @ sg wang 6th floor!
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dunno why?!!

2006-09-16T17:31:00.000+08:00

wutever i thought before is really different from what really happening now...
i said to myself b4, and also everyone around me that i will not be sad or wutever if u really go...but it is a mistake....when u told mi that u ad discuss bout it n will go if everything is ok ...tat moment i really feel very sad...just like a knife cut on my heart,slowly cut along my heart that feeling...the the pain remained for a very long time...i cant do anything but just let the pain remained in me...wut i imagine n wut i really felt when u told mi by ursev is really different...i really felt it.I really dunno what to do next...i also dunno why...but,wutever,this is still the truth...i shall think bout it on the bright side,right?! ;) for the moment,let mi stay with the pain in myself... just for a while perhaps. :)
well,before this happened,early morning woke up went to ate dim sum with gpa,gma,uncle,aunty, & sis...after that went to Sg. Wang to get a pendrive for myself...find whole Low Yat,was asking for Kingston super mini 1...but later ni realised i had make a mistake again...cz it is not Kingston when i wanna reconfirm the brand name with SC,it was Kingmax!!i was like kena bom,argg~!!moreover,today Low Yat super pack n hot mann!!ok,finally i got it from Imbi Plaza...haha...happy me~~weee!!! eheehe...came back on9 then got the news aboved lor...sigh**** sadnya!!!wut to do!!???i really dunno!why am i so blank recently!!!super stupid pig! geram***

2006-09-15T19:44:00.000+08:00

unwrap...
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2006-09-15T19:43:00.000+08:00

foetus wrap by a membrane thingy
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2006-09-15T19:42:00.000+08:00

embryos..
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2006-09-15T19:41:00.001+08:00

foetuses
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2006-09-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

~~
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2006-09-15T19:40:00.001+08:00

reproductive organ of male rat
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2006-09-15T19:40:00.000+08:00

begin!
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2006-09-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

a closer look
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2006-09-15T19:38:00.001+08:00

male rat~
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2006-09-15T19:38:00.000+08:00

dissection time!!!
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A BRAND NEW SKIN~

2006-09-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

Finally,i'va got the chance to change my blog skin!!!!lol~~
hmm Autumm is coming~so i guess this is suitable loo..lol..
After been so long nvr blog other than just uploaded some pictures,suddenly got the urge to blog...wanna change it...change to sting brand new...forget bout the past...throw away the darkness world...
Since came back from Germany i've just really had enjoyed myself for 1 and a half days only....really~~While at Germany i really already figure out my direction...my purpose of doing this course..n the outcome...i've ready myself...i also promise that i will try hard to suceed it...n i really wanna mean it...i come back with a happy heart....n a right thoughts in mind...i learned from what i've listened n observed over there...n i try to change da bad side of me...But many times things are just different...there are lotsa factors,ways,etc that tried to stop me to do wut is right n wut i want...mum said wut to do?this is ur life...just get on with it..n dont need to worry o think so much... But can i do it?not that i dont want to lead a happy,problem-free life...but the truth is that something is trying to block me to reach that!!Everything just changed!!And it is gonna keep on changing...since this person came into my life,nope,i shud say,in our lives------OCTOPUS!!From that day onwards,my mind non-stop rewinding all those ugly scenes that happened before...i cant sleep well at night....even if i slept,the other day when i woke up,i will realised that my hands clench into fist form .Obviously,my whole body nvr relax while sleeping also...i erally very hearthache sometimes until i also speechless already...Recently i really canot sleep well...tears just burst out suddenly without notice...WTH***i dont want it to be like tis!BLIND also know if the pp is good 1 sure will bring happiness to u n prosperous in ur family lar(not in terms of money)!!are u blind o stupid!!???this is a very simple thing ok!!! Obviously this is not a good person la!!Since da presence of Octopus in my life,me n my family non-stop hav conflicts occurs,problems comes like a river flow!! SHIT!!!#$%^&$$^%&&**^*&&^$%$%##$@@@(*(!@#%% One day when i really dont want to tahan u ad then i sure go slap u!!!!u will be the 1st person that i ever really SLAP in my life!!!!IDIOT!!!FATTY!!!!SLUGS!!!!! yaks!!! Although bible tells me that if ur enemy slap ur right face let him slap the other side as well..but i really cannot stand this 'animal'!!!! hmmp!!Why on earth got such people 1??when wutever that is happening is da cause by her n she can just act like a good person!!DAMN iT!!!!!!HATE IT!!!Such a good actor...!!can act until as if nthg happened before...n is not her fault...!!so many people die why not u!!! Hope can nvr see u again...
Watever,i wont let anyting unhappy stop my life going on...i will cheer u again as before!hmm!!!
As for the other problem...just forget bout it...i'm not gonna wait it anymore...if i tink back myself also i will feel funny...issues like this also need to tell u...need to explain..when it is just a simple thiings...u said wanna solve mar...so now i told u ad la..told many times ad okay....solve o not is ur problem...i dun tink like tis is to change u ok...i know av1 will have their own personality n habbits...but this is not a big deal ok...
I also dunno why i got nthg to talk everyday in my life...i smile also have problem...wuts going on with mi!!!!????????
so unmotivated recently,felt so sleepy...boring....n aimless....Please lead me back....~~

2006-09-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

diaphram!!
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2006-09-09T01:32:00.001+08:00

dear kidney~!!
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2006-09-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

sheep's heart!!
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2006-09-09T01:31:00.001+08:00

bio lab!!demonstration~
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2006-09-09T01:31:00.000+08:00

polarimeter
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2006-09-09T01:30:00.001+08:00

familiar place...:)
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