A surprise in life
Monday, November 20, 2006
Very long time didn't update my blog already...because something had happened to my grandpa.Year 2006 by right should be a wonderful year for me....'cuz at first everything good had gifted to me from God.For instance,i got a good result in A-lvl(not bad la for me),then i stepped into a world which is not my choice-------PHARMACY...but it will be my stepping stone for my goal in the future....I knew i did not put my effort in suceeding it...but i really made up my mind during my time in Germany that i really will appreciate this opportunity for mi to learn for things...plus,this semester the fees is by me n my grandpa because of my dad's business is in down period....but who knows not everyting i planned in life will happen as it is...just like my grandpa case...Then another thing was i finally reunion with my long-lost mum n brother....is just like a surprise gift for me....God had finally answer my prayers after all these years....
But then,who knows that the year 2006 turns into a nightmare in my life so sudden.....On 2nd Oct 2006,i said goodbye to my grandpa after he sent me to college...when i tried to called back wanna ask grandma to cook more for dinner cz albino,sakai n bubble wanna come over to do the decoration thingy for senior's farewell...who knows on the other side of the phone,grandma was crying n telling me that she cant cook cz gpa was being sent to hospital cz he fell down from the stair while trying to fix the ceiling in my house's carpark area....i was so shocked....i just went blanked n luckily rach got drove to cll ...so i asked her to sent me home...all i could do was just pray to God while on my way home....all these happened too fast....tooo fast....that i couldn't accept it....then Alvan n i rush to the hospital.. tears was rolling out uncontrollable....i ran all the way to the emergency area asking for my grandpa location....when i saw my grandpa...he coud nt open his eye...but he just can move oni....i really burst....then the doctor sent him to radiology department to do CT-scan for him...i saw him vomit blood from his mouth....all these images still fresh in my mind til today...i still remember every single thing that i saw ....the surgeon told us that cant wait anymore,he nid to do the operation rightaway to remove his blood clot.the success percentage is just 50%-50%..'he suffered from severe head injury on admission,gcs is 7/15....left frontal contusion....left frontal sdh....hematoma.....midline shift....distance of the blood clot 2.4 cm,etc'....al these words that i read from the report still in my mind....after more than 2hours in OT,the operation finally had finish...i thank god!...then he is sent to neuro icu room....stay there for 2 weeks....nvr giving up to pray for him....nvr give up to trust in god....n God is so good to grandpa n me..he sent peoples from other church that we dunno to pray for grandpa n my family...n to guide mi to pray also....i really gratefull for all these....thank god that although my family stil not believer of god....but he stil love them so much....grandpa really shows some improvement bit by bit day by day although doctors stil tolds us that he is recovering very very slow...some also told mi that he might become vegetative bcz he has a severe brain injury n also take into account of his age factor....but i refuse to trust in them...because i knoe that nothing is impossible in God...HE knows grandpa more than anyone...i want to believe in HIM for his healing hands to touch my grandpa....
All the days that i spent in hospital,i had learn lotsa of things.....felt like i grown older by 10 years suddenly...i saw things that many of u guys might not seen....i experience things that you guys might not have the chance to experience...etc...is true...and the most important thing of all is i drew myself closer to God....n i also nvr know that i can trust someone like tat....i learned n understand the meaning of 'appreciate' n 'grateful'....i think one day 24hours is not enough to give praise to the lord....i thank god that i stil can breath by my own....i thank god that i am safe in his arm...i thank god that i can cough out phlegm by myself...i thank god that i can think,intepret n decide things by myself....i also thank god that i can open up my eye to see things in the world...i thank god for every single thing in my body that works healthily...a lot more~~~i say like this is because i saw those that unable to do all these 'simple' things that u guys tink...is a gift to us that we should appreciate...although it is simple...n of course u wil think that av single living organism can breath...but u will aprreciate it n be grateful that u actually can breath by ur own after u experience period that u cant do this before....just wanna say that appreciate everything that u had now,frens,family,enemies etc....even though u hate ur enemies...but actually they also let u see n learn something from their bad attitude....as a lesson for urself....life can actually be very fragile when u dun even had the chance to notice it...
after class re-start,i try to adjust my emotion etc...i try to be happy again....cz i think that i should not be so sadn worry...because GOD is with grandpa...i just can do wutever i can...n pray for him...every single corner in my house full with grandpa's shadow....everyting thing that i did in my daily life will makes me think bout grandpa...his teaching etc...he really is a superman in our life....he knew everythings bout electrical thingy,carpenter thingy....furniture...cooking....fabric....music...etc...he has got all the talent that not everyone can have...although he dun hv much chances to study during his time...but he nvr give up to upgrade himself....he keep n asking question etc...even though sometimes i feel very fan when he always ask....but he still ask...he really is a special person...he would be a genius if he were to be born to this world now..i alwasy say that if i am a scientist i wil clone him n my grandma....they are so awesome!!!
anyway,grandpa is going to be discharge in the morning...he wil be sent home ....n i still trust in GOD that he will let my grandpa wake up n by that time my grandpa will praise his work n glorify HIM....cz i know that GOD will nvr ever let his work to be done halfway....n i should not cease to trust in him..... :)
