my name
Sunday, November 26, 2006
prastinator is my name.....
procrastinating is simply irresistible....
though.....i'm not enjoying it....
something is in my heart.....a weight...tat goes deep inside....and makes me feel pain inside....
my heart is SICK now~~....
it needs intensive care unit to help it....
the thing that stabbed into it makes me hurt and hard to breath.......
heart is beating fast whole day.......
waiting for a hope is a question for me...eventhough i chose to believe still...but how long can i survive to keep on waiting for it?i'm afraid that i will collapsed before it could happen....
dear god,please ...please take me as an exchange for him.....let me go through it even this is hard ....but it is even more hard n suffering to look at him without knowing what i can do for him except just pray.....tell me please tell me....what do you want??!!!!!!!!!!!!what had he done to YOU??!!!!!!!please take his bitter cup away....let him be healed...if not...take me instead....i might not be as strong as him to go through this...but i really cant stand to look at him in this condition....
i'm really suffocating now....
please,grant us a christmas miracle~~
i really pray that you wake him up !!!!!!!!!!!!!
i have no more purpose in life without both of them.....i don't how to go on with it....
i have no direction.....i wont have courage to live on......
please.....please....please....
please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
