A BRAND NEW SKIN~
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Finally,i'va got the chance to change my blog skin!!!!lol~~
hmm Autumm is coming~so i guess this is suitable loo..lol..
After been so long nvr blog other than just uploaded some pictures,suddenly got the urge to blog...wanna change it...change to sting brand new...forget bout the past...throw away the darkness world...
Since came back from Germany i've just really had enjoyed myself for 1 and a half days only....really~~While at Germany i really already figure out my direction...my purpose of doing this course..n the outcome...i've ready myself...i also promise that i will try hard to suceed it...n i really wanna mean it...i come back with a happy heart....n a right thoughts in mind...i learned from what i've listened n observed over there...n i try to change da bad side of me...But many times things are just different...there are lotsa factors,ways,etc that tried to stop me to do wut is right n wut i want...mum said wut to do?this is ur life...just get on with it..n dont need to worry o think so much... But can i do it?not that i dont want to lead a happy,problem-free life...but the truth is that something is trying to block me to reach that!!Everything just changed!!And it is gonna keep on changing...since this person came into my life,nope,i shud say,in our lives------OCTOPUS!!From that day onwards,my mind non-stop rewinding all those ugly scenes that happened before...i cant sleep well at night....even if i slept,the other day when i woke up,i will realised that my hands clench into fist form .Obviously,my whole body nvr relax while sleeping also...i erally very hearthache sometimes until i also speechless already...Recently i really canot sleep well...tears just burst out suddenly without notice...WTH***i dont want it to be like tis!BLIND also know if the pp is good 1 sure will bring happiness to u n prosperous in ur family lar(not in terms of money)!!are u blind o stupid!!???this is a very simple thing ok!!! Obviously this is not a good person la!!Since da presence of Octopus in my life,me n my family non-stop hav conflicts occurs,problems comes like a river flow!! SHIT!!!#$%^&$$^%&&**^*&&^$%$%##$@@@(*(!@#%% One day when i really dont want to tahan u ad then i sure go slap u!!!!u will be the 1st person that i ever really SLAP in my life!!!!IDIOT!!!FATTY!!!!SLUGS!!!!! yaks!!! Although bible tells me that if ur enemy slap ur right face let him slap the other side as well..but i really cannot stand this 'animal'!!!! hmmp!!Why on earth got such people 1??when wutever that is happening is da cause by her n she can just act like a good person!!DAMN iT!!!!!!HATE IT!!!Such a good actor...!!can act until as if nthg happened before...n is not her fault...!!so many people die why not u!!! Hope can nvr see u again...
Watever,i wont let anyting unhappy stop my life going on...i will cheer u again as before!hmm!!!
As for the other problem...just forget bout it...i'm not gonna wait it anymore...if i tink back myself also i will feel funny...issues like this also need to tell u...need to explain..when it is just a simple thiings...u said wanna solve mar...so now i told u ad la..told many times ad okay....solve o not is ur problem...i dun tink like tis is to change u ok...i know av1 will have their own personality n habbits...but this is not a big deal ok...
I also dunno why i got nthg to talk everyday in my life...i smile also have problem...wuts going on with mi!!!!????????
so unmotivated recently,felt so sleepy...boring....n aimless....Please lead me back....~~
