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Saturday, August 26, 2006
21st August 2006: today new semester started.... i woke up, prepared myself to college....with a happy heart.... i told myself : " this time i gotta be really serious ".... :P after then end of my 1st lecture i received a call from F....a call that change my whole feeling of da day....o even for my whole life i guess...i dunno whether this is just temporary o wut ..i feel helpless ni really dunno wut shud i do....but i thank god that He with me..... n i also wanted to thank Rena for the cards that u gave mi....Bcz of one of the card, it gives mi the strength n courage to calm me down....& knowing the reason of God's work in me.... ;) But i still feel the weakness within myself to face the truth....but i gotta be strong....n i know i have to...no matter wut....
26th August 2006 : one week had past.....thank God for guiding me thru out this week....listening Fish's album "The Power of Love"... her sound are so weak n soft...but she got a strong strength in her soft voice.... feeling that her voice are helping mi to release the pressure within....n the sadness....i'm down....i'm so disappointed by F's act....n i really dun regconise who is he...i dunno why he must do such cruel things n saying those cruel words to me....why he must treat us like that....i really dunno why.... i felt so hurt....in everyway he act n behave...i really duno coming back to Malaysia is a happy thing o just to let me see the cruel side of him!!!! i'm so speechless right now.... tears rolled down on my cheeks without any notice before i slept....but i thank God that nvr leave me to walk on alone...
"Dear God, please grant me the SERENITY to accept the things that i cannot change, the COURAGE to change the things that i can , & the WISDOM to know the difference , Amen"
