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Saturday, April 08, 2006
well...i have been busy for the whole week...feel very tire...just only the first week alrd busy untill kisiaw...i cant imagine what wil come next....plus,the CIH lecturer keep on emphasing the power of english...etc etc...i'm so gonna fail his paper i guess...my english was like...SHIT!And the biology...wah liao~~~~da lecturer like talking to herself...i really dunno wuts tat about...-----evolution...origin of life....etc etc...plus da textbook was like an encyclopedia for mi~~~so darn thick!i think by the time i finish the whole book i might end up staying in 'rumah bahagia'...
just dunno how could i survive....n i also very very super afraid of failing any of the paper n one of the assignment...cz if i failed any of this i might not be able to further my studies at uniSA later...so freaky~~hmm....the whole week i was under pressure...but i really dont know where should i start my revision n how should i do it...
another thing that i realised was...i really scare of making new frens..i dunno how to do it...n i also dunno how to communicate with them...i think im like an antique stuff...cz i found out that i feel more comfortable to mix with elders than with pp around my age...weirdo~~~(other than my family)
time passes so slow ....i really dunt know whether i will have da patient to wait n strive hard until the end o not...
i dunno whether i was too fatique o wut...i lost all my feelings...i dun even know how to get angry even when my cousin messed up my puzzle which is still in progress...i just know i dunt like to talk much as i grew older n older...i like to be silent n i also enjoy the quiet time when there is no other sound around me.... i dont want to do anything at all except to keep all my assignment up-to-date and prepare all the notes that are required...i dont feel like loving anybody right now...i'm so lost...n also tire....those feeling come n gone,come again n gone again...i dunno i still can stand for how long....the fresh feeling of excitement,curiosity,unseparable,and so on....had lost....mayb i ask for too much...o mayb i alrd not myself anymore...i hope i can be more understanding most of the time...i also hope i wont ask for more...but i just cant do it...
i'm like an empty body without a soul in it.....whoever who owned me is just like owning an empty body...i should have never exist in this world....
