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Friday, March 03, 2006
tuesday was my 1st day as a volunteer in hospis malaysia...hmm...feeling quite good...i'm learning how to communicate with old people..morning when patient came in then ill make drinks for them...n serve their breakfast for them...then after that i bring their plates,cups etc...to wash...then another session begins!there it goes...the qigong session....started with some simple warm up exercise by an occupational therapist...after that we r celebrating birthday for the stars borned in the month of february!! haha...the patient there were all very cute...after that we have one massage session!!wow!believe mi not, i've learned some simple techniques to massage...-----foot massage!!haha...well i guess i havent really mastered it!!..
i always think,why i can treat outsider better than my own family,my bloved 1...is much more better...n i wonder why...i just cant control myself whenever im with them..i just cant stop for a minutes to appreciate times with them...i wish i could...but it just never can happen!!
thursday went to HM again ...wow!there are more patient compare to tues!! haha...although kept mi very busy n feel very tire...but i'm very happy that i can brightened up their day...at least i've done my best n with all of my heart...
since my last paper in A-lvl's final,i avday also..sleep sleep sleep at home oni!! really very fai chai..until now i feel so too...i've no proper direction in my life...i dunno where should i go...i dunno where HE wants mi to go...wut HE wants mi to do....i just dunno...feel so helpless..
i'm so hoping that my result can be out ASAP but on another hand,im afraid to face the truth...i knew it before i started my papers that tis time is really die ad ....i've totally screwed it up...die...haih...wut to do...
