heart broken~
Friday, September 02, 2005
yesterday night was great!!....
this morning suddenly very miss @....wanna see him today n hug @ in my arms...dunno why..went to college sent an sms to tell @ then ask whether is it possible to meet for a while today.....so deal to hv dinner together.....1st lesson was biology practical,doing some investigation on the reaction of a stimulus....we was instructed to catch a fallen metre ruler without drinking coffee at 1st n measure the distance....then repeat after drank a cup of coffee....yieks!!not really like coffee a lot...but luckily the cofee was not so bad to drink...quite relaxing lesson...n it just last for an hour...
after class this morning R n G plan to to go 1u...so i follow along lor...we went 1u with sj,r,g,& alli,....after walking around n wondering for some time we finally decided to go for vietnam food...then there we go------Vietnam Kitchen.the appertizers not bad...will try again!!haha..
around 330pm i told them that i have to chaoz 1st..cz i wanna pick @ home from college at 430pm..better to make it earlier than to let @ wait...who knows i 457pm ad reach...so have to wait lor...but nevermind ....
next stop was @ house...went to@ house n called mrs J,my dad' recomended english tuition teacher...ask her whether she know bout IELTS o not...i thnk that she dun really know bout IELTS syllabus ..n their exam style...1hour = RM75!!!!!!wahliao~~~~siao mer.....so damn expensive....n 1 shot at least 2 hours ler....haih..i feel my heart sunken ad....no discount~~this is ad a discounted price for mi!!! sai lar!!so expensive .,....how to afford!!wow~~i think i must master 1 of the most popular language in the world...so if i dun hv any job i might as well b a tuition teacher n within 1 day i tink i ad on my way to rich pathway~~really siao~~
haihz...after a while dad call....told mi that mrs J said that my english is very poor....hmm....feel so terrible....like hell....haihs.....if my english very excellent then i no need to find a tuition teacher la!!!something wrong...think i got a lot of money izzit...still dunno wanna take the tuition o not...sommo dad say 'i dunno u ar,u figure it out by yourself'....so non-supportive!!why in da world hv this kind of pp 1!!
then had my dinner with @ .. while having dinner we chi chat something...then suddenly @ say something stupid that i wouldnt want to remember it forever....'dunno'. i also cant predict what is going to happen in the future,,....how can i give a sure n exact answer ler~~stupid!!!
then i feel so upset n nthg to say anymore....then waith untill 7....wanna fetch @ to college for class but wut!!@ say wanna walk to college,....i was so mz...my car like suddenly became a sport car....then i stop infront of him n open up the door say nthg....then sped my car like mad on those busy road..drop him off at his college...then i sped home again....nvr try to drive this way ,like this,before....so fast even there is no space for a car to fit in...housing area also i did da same...i tink my mz level is at near top level....but then when i think back i really feel like crying...reach home only then straightaway went up into my room ...1st time feel scare of light...dowan to turn on the light....cz my world is like the darkest ad....throw myself on the bed n start to cry in the dark like a stupid people....dunno wut is going on !!haihz...@ dunno wut cause mi to choose to b silent....i really nthg to say....i like too burden suddenly...too bad...izzit a bad-mood-day??haihz...
SOS
